James
Silence Me Lord
Jan 12, 2007
Silence me lord
My life keeps on trying me hard and I’m running out of logical things to say
I’m about to start swinging
Taking aim at all in arms reach
Because it seems, that they are all trying to harm me
I’m tired of running, tired of turning cheeks and being nice
Holding my tongue and always having to give good advice
I’m running on empty
My supply has been diminished and nobody can help me, they say they have nothing to give me
And when they do offer
It seems in vain so it’s not the same
I’m wrecking my brain thinking about dying this is not a game
I have trouble sleeping
Reality fades when I fall asleep
I can’t see their face’s, I can only hear them calling me
I try not to listen
I close my eyes and ears as tight as hell
I can still hear them no matter how I scream or how I yell
The pain’s over bearing
But I wear my face like nothing’s wrong
Smile and act friendly, give the impression nothing’s going on
I’m tired of lying
I want to tell it all from center stage
Unmask my anger; show the world all of my hate and rage
Hate is a strong word but it flows through me in every vein
And I can’t release it
So my life’s filled with forever pain
I feel strange at times
Cause most people take what I say as lies
They’d realize I mean it if they would look deeply within my eyes
There are a few people
In my life that’s on their last leg
I wish I could trip them, assist them on the way to being dead
Especially 2 or 3
I wish them people would die today
Damn how their families feel and what their people have got to say
There are a few things that’s been on my mind that I have got to say
Like why do ya’ll play with me and treat me like a childish game
You’ve got me confused
With somebody else you must’ve met
Ain’t no way in hell
I will ever again go for that
My last time
Falling behind was in 11th grade
And since that day
You’ll have to kill me before I’m afraid
No I’m not playing
You can feel the truth jump off the page
I turn to the Bible
As if it would help me turn off my rage
It didn’t help me
It only worsened now I’m fighting mad
I’m trying to reverse it and figure out some way to give it back
I’m dying inside
Not rapidly but at a steady pace
And I cannot stop it I don’t know what to do to set it strait
So I don’t even try
I could die tonight that’s fine with me
The only reason I’m still breathing now is for my family
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