Lyn
new poem
Jan 5, 2011
JUST IS
Try so hard to be there
So hard to show how much I care
But always it the “whoa is me” syndrome
It makes me want to stay alone
Want to find myself another place to roam.
I really care and I will always love you
But it’s not meant for us to be a two.
I stayed long after I should have gone
But it was with you my heart found a home.
I want us to be together for life
But now it time for you to find another wife.
The abusiveness of your words
Then you act as if they went unheard
I was there when you battled friends
I thought I would be there until the end
But as life would have it, you didn’t need me
You needed your ego to grow and you to find glee
In another woman’s arms
While your enjoyed her lucky charms
You didn’t think about the hurt that I felt
Then you expect my heart to just heal!!
WHAT were you thinking when you laid there?
Did you forget all the love you had here?
I had your back when no one else did
But now I have to put all those feelings under a lid
Feeling like Brian McKnight and have that one last cry
Knowing that my heart just wants to die.
Years I spend trying to make you see
That all I wanted was just you and me
But you wanted Keisha, Erica and Jasmine
I just wanted to be seen as Lyn
Not the pretty one or the one that strips
Not the one that has with ruby red lips
But the one that didn’t judge you
The one that try to keep it true.
Yes there’s a lot of pain I feel
You will never know the real deal
Words alone will never be able to express
The harsh pain that I feel in my chest
I just want to bleed to make it go away
But it only gets worst cause it just stays
I question myself daily and ask
What I have I done to make you do such a task?
Thinking I was the best girlfriend in the world
How blind could I truly be not to see that it was another girl?!
She was much more that I could become
Obviously, second to none
Because even after I left she was still there to take the test
To show me that I less that even your best
Friend with benefits or just a two bit
Man I gotta quit.
I’m never gonna let you see how much you really hurt me
I asked you from the start
Please oh please don’t break my heart.
It’s very protected that I why I have it guarded
I said listen to these words and just don’t discard it.
But at last, again here I am between heartbreak hotel and the lonely inn
Lesson learned, hearts burned, got this street in my GPS so I won’t be back again.
But single is good, at least I can express who I am
Not to worry about or even give a damn
What others think or how they feel…
It time for me to keep in real
So I pray you do well
And find the friend who will be the right fit
Bringing you all you need and keep the fires lit.
As for me I’m going to be ok…well is the only way.
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