timing: I had forgotten some of the problems solo artists such as classical pianist and guitarists may end up having, until recently. Other instrumentalists such as string, brass and woodwinds may not acquire the same problems as they usually play with others. Unless a pianist is accompanying another instrumentalist he/she is on their own. One of the problems I’m talking about is a sense of timing. In a classical composition you are the one that makes up the tempo. Words like andante, allegro, moder...

Java: Since last Friday, pain has taken me to a whole new level where I've never been before. Pain is relentless and will work constantly to break down a person's will. It will take you to a very dark place hard to get out from. You will learn something about yourself very quickly. I learned that I am much stronger mentally and will not get down a path it's trying to force me to follow. Yes I thought about cleaning out my sinuses with a bullet but quickly realized what was happening. My mind was just ...