Freak McNasty

CAME IN2 THIS SHADY WORLD ON 5-22-1979. MY MOTHER SPIT ME OUT WHEN SHE WAS 17 YEARS OF AGE. SHE WAS KICK'D OUT OF HER DWELLING BY HER PARENTS & MY BIO-DAD RAN OUT WHEN I WAS JUST A FEW MONTHS OLD. MY REAL DAD CAME IN2 MY LIFE WHEN I WAS 9 MONTHS OLD & HAS LOVED & RAISED ME SINCE. WITHOUT HIM I'D BE JUST LIKE THAT SPERM DONATING PIECE OF SHIT WHO RAN OUT & IS IN & OUT OF JAIL. MY MOTHER GOT PREGNANT WIT MY BROTHER & HE WAS BORN WHEN I WAS ALMOST 4. MY DAD MARRIED MY MOTHER CUZ OF THAT & CUZ HE WANTED TO ADOPT ME. HE SAVED ME FROM THE DEPTH OF HELL & I THANK HIM FOR THAT. I OWE HIM MY LIFE. THEY GOT DIVORECED WHEN I WAS 5. MY DAD ASK'D ME IF HE WANT'D HIM & MY MOMS TO STAY 2GETHER & FIGHT OR FOR HIM TO LEAVE & HE'LL SEE US ALL THE TIME. I CHOSE THE LATTER AND HE KEPT TO HIS WORD. MY MOMS HAD IT RUFF. SHE WAS A SINGLE MOTHER OF TWO AND STRUGGLED FOR LOOT FOR QUITE SOME TIME. A FEW X-MAS' WERE RUFF BUT WE MADE DUE. WE WERE LIKE NOMADS. WE LIVED ALL OVER LOWELL, MA AKA MILL CITY. MEAN WHILE MY DAD MARRIED MY STEPMOTHER & THEY BUILT A STABLE LIFE FOR US. MY MOTHER MOVED A LOT & HAD MULTIPLE BOYFRIENDS THAT CAME IN & OUT OF OUR LIVES. AS A TEENAGER MY DEPRESSION BECAME DEEPER & TOOK A HOLD ON ME FOR QUITE SOME TIME. I WAS DIAGNOSED WITH BI-POLAR DISEASE. I WENT THROUGH SO MUCH TROUBLE WITH IT. I USED TO CARVE MY ARMS UP WITH RAZOR BLADES & KNIVES JUST FOR THE PAIN & SCARS. EACH SCAR IS A MOMENT IN MY LIFE WHERE I WAS AT MY LOWEST MENTALLY. MY FATHER GAINED CUSTODY OF US WHEN WE I WAS AROUND 13 OR SO. WE MOVED TO DRACUT, MA. A FUCK'D UP SHIT HOLE THAT I CALL THE VILLAG OF THE DAMN'D. IT'S A QUIET TOWN, A GREAT PLACE TO RAISE KIDS IN THE AMERICAN DREAM WIT A WHITE PICKET FENCE & WUT NOT BUT IT'S FULL OF HATERS & COCK BLOCKERS. I DIDNT HAVE THE FINE DISIGNER CLOTHES WHAT MY PEERS HAD BUT I MADE "FRIENDS" WIT MY CHARM & FUNNY & WITTY PERSONALITY. ONCE I GRADUATED IN 1998, I WAS HOOK'D ON SO MANY DRUGS SO I WASNT MAKING TOO MUCH OF A PROFIT SELL'N TREES & OPIUM. I MADE LOOT TO SUPPORT MY OWN HABBIT. I LOST ALL MY "FRIENDS" & I WENT INTO REHAB. I HUSLTED MORE ONCE I GOT OUT BUT I GOT BACK INTO DO'N DRUGS A LOT AS WELL AS EVEN MORE DRINK'N. I PARTIED HARD & LIVED MY LIFE LIKE EVERY DAY WAS MY LAST. I WENT TO BED AT NIGHT BEG'N THE LORD TO TAKE MY LIFE & WOKE UP PISS'D CUZ I WAS ALIVE. I HAD THE ULTIMATE CHIP ON MY SHOULDER AND MY DEPRESSION OWNED ME. I WAS THROWN OUT OF MY MOTHER'S HOUSE WHEN I WAS 19. SHE CHOSE HER BOYFRIEND OVER ME. SHE LIED & TOLD ME THAT MY DAD WANT'D NUT'N TO DO WIT ME EITHER. SO I BOUNCED. I SPENT A FEW MONTHS LIV'N ON FRIENDS COUCHES AND CARS. I SPENT THANXGIVING THAT YEAR SLEEPING IN THE BACK SEAT OF MY FRIEND'S CAR. ME & HER DIDNT TALK FOR OVER 2 YEARS. MY DAD CAME & RESCUED ME B4 I MOVED TO GLOUCESTER & THEN LATER TO SRASOTA, NY. WHEREVER LIFE TOOK ME. I WAS A DRUG ADICT & I WASNT PROUD OF WHO I BECAME. I USED MY ANGER TO LASH OUT ON PEOPLE. I HATED MY LIFE & EVERYTHING IN IT. ALL THIS CHANGED FOR A BIT ONCE MY SON, KOBY, WAS BORN ON 10-20-2001. I OPENED MY EYES TO A BRIGHTER WORLD. ME & HIS MOTHER WERE POSE TO GET MARRIED BUT SHE CHEAT'D ON ME IN MY OWN HOME JUST MONTHS B4 THE WEDDING. AFTER WE SPLIT SHE USED HIM AS A PAWN AGAINST ME. IT'S TUFF GIV'N UP THE TWO BEST PARTS OF YOUR DAY 4EVER. THEM BEING THE MOMENT U WAKE UP & HE'S LOOK'N AT U WAIT'N FOR HIS BOTTLE & THE MINUTE U COME HOME HE RUNS TO U LIKE HE AINT SEEN U IN A WEEK. THIS KILL'D ME & MY DEPRESSION HIT ME HARDER THAN EVER B4. I MET A GIRL WHO RUINED MY LIFE FOR QUITE SOME TIME. SHE WAS THE WORLDS MOST UNFAITHFUL & UNGRATEFUL BITCH. I WENT THRU HELL FROM THIS SLUT BUT I MADE IT THRU EVEN WIT THE GASOLINE BOOTS ON! DURING THIS TIME I STARTED WRITING LYRICS TO MY LIFE. HIP HOP BECAME MY THERPY. I FELL IN LOVE WIT HIP HOP BACK IN THE LATE 80'S TO GEMS LIKE PUBLIC ENEMY, NWA & 2 LIVE CREW AS WELL AS ICE CUBE. THEN THE EARLY 90'S HIT & IT WAS WU-TANG, DRE, SNOOP, CYPRESS HILL, REDMAN, METHOD MAN, TUPAC & BIGGIE. I HAD BEEN WRITTING LYRICS SINCE I WAS ABOUT 17 BUT THIS NEW SHIT HAD HEART, SOUL & BLOOD ALL OVER IT. I HELP'D HEAL THE WOUNDS CREATED BY THE LIFE I LED. TABOO FOR THE SOUL BECAME MY THERAPY. MY WAY OF LIFT'N ALL THE WEIGHT OFF OF MY SHOULDERS. I FOUND A TRUE SMILE. I FOUND MY REASON'S FOR LIVING. THE LIGHT IN MY DARK ROOM BEGAN TO SPARK. THEN ONCE I MET JESSICA, MY WIFE, SHE KEPT THAT LIGHT ON. SHE GAVE ME HOPE & FAITH. SHE SHOWS ME TRUE LOVE & I GIVE THAT BACK TO HER FAITHFULLY. SHE'S CARRYING MY 2ND CHILD. WE WILL SHARE THE RESPONSIBLITIES OF FAMILY LIFE. SHE HAS GIVEN ME A REAL FAMILY. HER, OUR CHILD, KOBY & ME WILL LIVE PROUD & STRONG! SO THERE IT IS, MY STORY. NOW DROP A MESSAGE IF YA LIKE'S THE MUSIC & WANT A COPY OF "TABOO 4 THE SOUL". THIS ALBUM IS MY BLOOD, SWEAT & TEARS.

Tupac, Biggie, Wu Tang, Nas, Mos Def, RAKIM, Jadakiss, Redman, Method Man, Slim Shady, Mobb Deep, 50 Cent, Young Buck, N.W.A., Snoop, Public Enemy, Busta, Outkast & many many more true MC''s