I recorded the long dark tea time of the soul around 2004.
I had no idea what I was doing: I didn't know how to play my instruments, I didn't know how to record music and I didn't know how to produce music.
I was also dealing with the heartache of finally telling my friend how I really felt about her and being rejected - believe me: "ouch" just don't cover it..
Tom Robinson picked up on the track 'Silbury Hill' after I submitted it to the 6 music introducing show. He was quite encouraging and used it as a bed for a YouTube video he posted of south by southwest festival.
But I was in a bad place and needed to earn money so I decided I had no talent and went off to find better paid work instead.
For a long time I thought these tunes were awful (most of you still do!) and it was only because I couldn't log into my account that I didn't delete it all in a fit of self hatred.
But listening back 10 years layer I think it's actually brilliant for all of the above reasons.
There are no vocals and sure there are bum notes and bits out of time, yes some of the mixing isn't great but I wasn't 'trying' to do anything because I didn't know "how" to do anything.
So ultimately its pretty honest music, reflecting how I felt at the time and with a lot of pretty good ideas and I think it sounds like .... well...me.
I put the track list together to flow - its a dark and left-field collection of tunes with influences from Electronica/Indie/Blues/Metal and Goth music.
I think if you can get past the snobbery (and overlook the lack of professional polish) it works pretty well.
I cant actually believe I made Ghosts - I must have channelled that one automatic writing style. Quatermass wont be everyone's cup of tea but it flows into Quatermass (Slight Return) which was an on the spot crazy jam that I think is really cool.
I half wish I had the source files so I could remix the songs - but id just change them and they'd be ruined.
I was supposed to be an artist
my grandad was a painter (an expressionist impressionist he called himself)
my dad was into illustration
all through school I was the kid who could draw
when I hit my twenties I lost all desire to make art but I was driven to make sounds
so I made this album
then I gave up making sounds
and did less rewarding things with my time...
I have never played live - but Im half tempted to have a go.
My dad was into country so I respond to the classic country tunes like Hank Williams or Johnny Cash. My stepdad was a biker and through him I learned about Black Sabbath, Deep Purple, Led Zeppelin/Jimi Hendrix. At school I liked the goth and metal kids so I was into the cure, Fields of the Nephillim, Siouxsie and the Banshees, Sisters of Mercy, The Cult, Metallica, Iron Maiden, Faith no more. In 6th form I was a bit more indie so I liked Lush, Happy Mondays, Ride, the Pixies. I used to listen to John Peel every night while working on my A level art projects, also Mark Radcliffe's out on blue six radio show. When I left school I moved to Gloucester and that's where I met the girl who would later break my heart and she was a Punk - so obviously I learned as much about Punk as I could. After Gloucester I moved to Manchester and all bets were off :) All music is good!! Now I listen to BBC Radio 6 music because its the only thing that covers everything I like.