Close to my heart. I got emotional writing this track, and the hook speaks about all of us that have been born again. I think its just a real song.

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Before You

What was I, before You?
Just another guy, who never knew
The right time from the wrong
His left foot from his right
Who’d sleep all day and hang around all night
Before You

Jesus this straight from me to you
Thinking back sometimes to all we went through
When I was a kid, I felt you hold me tight
Just another little boy crying in the night
Who seen his parents fight
Smell liquor on their breath, and hear Him try to kill each other lying in his bed
When I hit my teens I was in a new home
Grandma raising me when she would rather be alone
I was sad in my heart, no friends but you
But my prayers every night were heard so thank you
I said id do my best to keep away from wrong
I made some different friends and forgot before long
Fell in love with a girl and we did some bad things
Never could foresee all the trouble it would bring
Drinking and such, having sex way too young
Dying inside because I lost a girl’s love


Flash to some years later, nothing’s changed much
Everything I do I find a way to screw up
I still love you though; I’m just lost in my sin
I wish I could talk to my savior again
But as it is, habits I can’t change
I don’t like myself, and I’m going insane
I got a new girl and I love so much
Keep a bible in our car but it never gets touched
I don’t want to lose her cause she’s got a little girl
And though she ain’t mine, she’s like my whole world
At night she’d ask me if we can kneel and pray
There’s anger in my heart, so I don’t what to say
I wonder if she’s heard things shouldn’t be said
With Mama and Rich yelling why she’s in bed
I think of that boy that Jesus held close
And I know she’s the one that really needs You most

I guess you know the rest, it didn’t work out
I found myself alone again seeking you out
Jesus, when that day came, brokenhearted on the edge of my bed
And crying from the pain
You spoke to me; you told me what do
Said if I stopped sinning then I wouldn’t miss you
I was so happy to hear from my best friend again
I’ve been loving you so much ever since then
I gave up hate and you showed me love
I gave up my flesh and you become enough
I gave up my lies and you showed me truth
I gave up me and you gave me you
And everything that I do now seems to be blessed
And I’m still not perfect but I’ve done my best
Jesus, I love you so much I want to say thanks
I’m down to make you happy whatever it takes