This song has a vaguely uplifting sound but it's really a total bummer. PARADOXICAL, NO?

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I can't see you anymore
Cause I'm blinded
By the stench of your humanity
It sickens me
But it's only a reflection of my
Chronic indignity
It's the nature of biology
It's just the stupid ape in me

I can't stand it anymore
This gap of consciousness from form
I'm busy tearing out my brain cells
But I find they're already torn

Relatively speaking I'm frankly doing fantastic
Cause at least I'm not vomiting and spastic
I could be a microbe on a toilet seat
I guess it's better than that

Excuse me if I don't seem cheery
Living life inside my head
It is a hostile environment
I can't escape from it
There's no reality
I've had a break from it

Over the rainbow and two blocks down
There's a maniac and a crying clown
And a lousy excuse for a human slug
Oh no wait that's me

I can't understand why when
Your hormones and your brain cells interact
With all the drugs that you've been taking
I am totally forsaken
How could you do this to somebody that you were supposed to love?
What can you think of me if you could do this
Without thinking of
The sheer degree to which you'd wound me
With that dagger in my side?
I can't believe that all this time you had this evil thing inside

You can't expect me to believe this was a
Momentary lapse
Of all the people who could hurt me
I thought you would be the last

And just when I was thinking
I didn't have one friend left in the world
You proved me right
And now I might
Just plain give up
On making any kind of meaningful connection

Not that I really ever tried
These people all just seem like lizards
Sitting comfortably eating flies
And looking coldly at each other
Always coiled and ready to strike
There's no such thing as love when
Fear is ever controlling our lives

And I can't find the strength
To pull myself right up out of this hole
But if I don't this constant downpour's bound
To flood and drown my soul

Please excuse me if I don't seem cheery
Living life inside my head
It is a hostile environment
I can't escape from it
There's no reality
I've had a break from it

Over the rainbow and two blocks down
There's a maniac and a crying clown
And a lousy excuse for a human slug
Oh no wait that's me