A song about when your life finally gets put on track...then totally derailed again

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A song about when your life finally gets put on track...then totally derailed again. About all the pain of coping with death in a bad way also

–Intro–
You came in
You came in
You came in
You came in

–Verse 1–
You came in and you came and seemed to fix it all
Her heart healed, her heart sent pictures that she saw
So complete, complete was the family now
But we weep, we weep as you are now ashes

–Pre-Verse 2–
As I layed down that night I cried so hard I
Did not want to pictured this to be the end
Of love for her, her alone makes me want to die
For once she had true love, will she get it again?

–Verse 2–
I am breathing death as the machines are turned off
Watching as my father drifts along
I can feel a cold so numbing I don’t cry
Blank and nothing as he dies

And I look up to see my mother crying
I look back down at his face to feel nothing
Everything quickly perishes inside my mind
Every moral I had learned unwinds

–Verse 3–
All the pain inside this
Heart is amplifying
Everything’s so hot
That I am shivering

The robot is born
As the human fades
Away and drifts
Into a memory

repeat verse 3

–Verse 4–
He had came in and filled the holes
Giving me a father, giver her a lover
He had came in and filled the holes
Giving me a father, giver her a lover

I could be
Be a child
All the while
She wouldn’t be alone

Even when illness came, completion stayed
Even when it got bad, his happiness never wanted
Even when illness came, completion stayed
Even when it got bad, his happiness never wanted

He refused
To be pulled
Down, he would
Not give up hope

–Chorus–
My heart was shred that day
My heart withered into a scab

I picked and chipped ‘till went away
I flaked and peeled day to day

My energy became hatred
My energy became insecurity

Self-disgust and judgement
Became the only thing real to me

–Verse 5–
I cried only when the empty became too much
When I ended up tearing my own skin
I made myself bleed to make sure I was alive
Every single thing that had gone bad in my life erupted
Transformed a sweet little boy into nothing
A soulless monster ready to die forever
I drowned out the screams of my former self
If I had to endure, he too would stay in Hell
I drowned out the screams of my former self
If I had to endure, he too would stay in Hell

–Build-Up–
But you aren’t gone forever
We will all be together

repeat Build-Up x4

–Verse 6–
He will forever be in my heart
Filling that hole he did when he was here
I just hope she doesn’t have to wait
For eternity to start

repeat Verse 2
Verse 3 x2
Repeat Verse 4
Repeat Chorus x2

–Outro–
I drowned out the screams of my former self
If I had to endure, he too would stay in Hell