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September died today. I go out walking, I need my sword for a cane
I left my house unlocked in case I walk into All Souls' Day
Thinking how we begin so righteous and well and how we end struggling to merely hold ourselves.
I thought there’d be more to make of my last time through the city unsupervised,
No nurse or wife.
I guess I miss the blind who led the blind,
I guess holding hands needed no eyes.

I look to the ground and point at my words getting the death they deserve.
I’m not in awe of the earth.
All my lovers have been deafer than the dead and I’ve had to hear the world crumble for them.
I don’t have ears left to be a better friend
or to listen for another kingdom
even if it‘s singin‘ about how we can get in.
I’ve stayed limber and thin to contort into everyone I’ve been.
I took the form of a child.
I smiled every time I was told I had your eyes.
I held you when you were motherless
And again when you were childless.
I gave you the illusion that you were not childless all the while.
I never learned to sing,
I hummed with the sewing machine,
Trying to make clothes for you,
Find a simpler way to love you.
I should have been more typical and less difficult.
I should have made children for you.
I learned to drive,
I learned to drink,
I learned to smile.
I passed my heart around;
it was passed out when it got to you.
But didn’t I take my dress off, become sexless, and unsex you?
Why couldn’t I get my mind off you?

*artwork by my dad