added 7.26.09

this was the blog entry I posted and later I put it to music:

Tonight I felt something swelling up in me that was a bit too big, it expanded in me and pressed about against the walls, I felt like a pressure cooker until it died down. this happened after I had a conversation with a friend about world problems and the solutions, Oh how my heart just cried "God your kingdom come and your will be done!"
But there are so few who have integrity and the corruption is so widespread and deep rooted. The intoxicating influence of money is so powerful that hardly anyone escapes its dominion. And Oh how the nations suffer, people are oppressed and hell is brought to earth as a result.
The solution is a heart change, good education, morel self-government and for people to Know what the Lord loves and takes pleasure in and align themselves with His will. But to see this happen on a large scale, seems so huge and as implausible as emptying the ocean, and yet in the mist of the emotion, I am like "lets do it! We have to do it, we must bring heaven to earth!" but I then look down at the tea-spoon in my hand, shake my head feeling defeated and I am deflated. All my emotion and excitement ends up being nothing more then hot air, there for a moment and then forgotten, until something gives cause for it to rise up in me again.