Inspired by our singer's battle with alcohol and drug addiction

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I wrote this song in 1995, when I was a little over 1 year clean and still battling the demons of drug and alcohol addiction. As an update to this song, I've now been clean over ten years straight. But it's still an important part of my life, which is why we re-recorded it for the Wet Dreams and Other Delights EP.

i drink for effect
thats okay cos my life is wrecked
i drug everyday
to keep from screaming cos im slipping away
im freaking out because im under duress
i cant keep up with all the anger and stress
i feel like opening up one of my veins
if i cant keep from pouring me down the drain

i drink to extremes
thats okay cos its one of my dreams
i drug cos i dare
to close my eyes to this selfmade nightmare
it keeps on slipping down over my ears
i cant compete with all the pain and the tears
cant find a niche within my society
so i find rage my only true property

im losing my life
its no wonder im going under the knife
im feeling absurd
or something for lack of a better word
maybe ill end it all or maybe i wont
depends upon whether i stop or i dont
ive already done institutions and jail
and death awaits me at the end of this trail